Tuesday, September 3, 2013

easily entertained quickly bored


EASILY ENTERTAINED BUT QUICKLY BORED

I’ve always had issues with writing.  You can see this on a weekly basis.  One or two articles filled with joy and glee and others obvious forced when I had little to say.  Not that I don’t always have something to talk about so much as half the time I’m just not up to transferring it to words, or I’m just bored with the subject.  My enthusiasm level varies with sleep, the last time I got lucky with the wife, coffee ingestion and etcetera.  This has been the case from day one.  However, I’m noticing another factor involved.  By no means a mid-life crisis- which is for pussies- I just find myself bored in general with my life and writing isn’t filling the void like it used to.  For the last twenty years I’ve lurched from one problem to another.  Losing the kids, new and renewed attacks financially from the ex.  Finding two new wives, going through one issue after another with them.  Trying to live more frugally all the time out of necessity.  Two bankruptcies, near homelessness, trying to leave the rat race both in work and in a place to live.  It has all been one ball of needless stress brought on by the asshatedness of low life scumbags.  But at least it had one side benefit which was I always had a goal or a challenge.  Since this Spring I’m kind of up in the air.  I find myself rudderless.

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I’m not struggling for money.  I’m not helping to bail out my kids.  The wife decided after five plus years she doesn’t want to leave me after all so she is almost agreeable to be around, without the engineered drama.  I don’t have any projects around the homestead ( other than rain catchment, and I’m dragging my feet on that, afraid to even start ).  For the first time in decades, I have no challenges.  I’m bored.  And let’s face it, I only have occasional bouts of glory on the writing.  I’m really the victim of my own success, having solved all my problems.  I could create some.  If I insisted on gardening that would occupy me the rest of my life.  Saving for a well, conditioning soil, rodent problems.  Blah, blah, blah.  The thing is, I’m not passionate about that.  It would be exactly what it sounds like-make work.  It is intentionally complicating things to give yourself the illusion of purpose and achievement.  I’d see the charade immediately.  Starting a business?  I suck at that.  Just witness my how much I make writing.  Best writing around.  But it ain’t much more than book buying money ( I’m even getting bored with reading.  Most of it just reiterates what I already know ).  But more importantly, I just can’t get excited about the race and fight for financial success.  What is the point?  Money will soon be worthless.  If I got a lot of money and bought farmland, that would just be a lot of hard work for the first warlord that came along and stole it.

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I think this is what causes so much trouble.  Folks want to have a challenge, feel bored, and stir up trouble to solve the problem they created.  I wonder how much of the political shenanigans are a result of this?  Politician Douche Lick feels bad for stealing money from a fixed cattle futures scam, is a little repentant in having dozens of political opponents killed, then tries to make a grand historical statement saving the children with nationalized health care.  She wants to feel good about herself and after being the queen behind the throne, what else is there to accomplish?  So she starts dabbling in Machiavellian intrigues all over the world.  Screws all that up, one of her opponents poisons her in a coup attempt, she looks like a cancer victim and quits politics.  All because of boredom and the need of achievement.   With Muslim immigrants having been given false birth certificates, being given false grades to appease disadvantaged urban ghetto Skittles Eaters quotas,  and being handed Senate seats on the way to a fixed election, things are even worse.  They are bored, and must prove how worthy they are ( after you start a couple of wars, even that Nobel prize looks fixed to you yourself ).  Unfortunately for the other 300 million of us, then that means the proof is how much of a bankers toady they are, we pay the price.

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So what’s my point?  I don’t know.  Perhaps I’ll try something stupid and different with this blog. Perhaps I’ll just blow off some steam and get over it.  Perhaps it was just what’s on my mind today and you are being subjected to it.  On to happy fun news.  My pain and suffering.  Yesterday is a holiday, so I only worked a half day.  Looking forward to reading a new post-apoc novel ( I know, I said reading was starting to bore me.  It’s still better than my other alternatives ), I thought I had hours of fantasy emersion ahead of me.  Alas, after bathing and other chores, it started to pour buckets.  I’m talking, the heavens opened up, not our usual few drops measuring in the thousands of an inch.  I go to head downstairs to the pit and there is a standing puddle of water almost up to the door ( I have a dip down at the bottom of the stairs, then a step up to the door, as a cold air trap ).  I bailed for about an hour precariously perched on a slab of wood over a shoreline of mud.  The thing must have been six inches deep.  The battery was complexly underwater ( the battery is buried to insulate over the winter ).  After scrapping and squaring the steps and making a deeper hole at the bottom by removing the mud down to dry dirt, I solved the issue.  Groovy, my first flash flood.   The thing is, coming into town this morning, professional builders and landscapers had far more damage done to their work than I had to my amateur attempts.  So I don’t feel bad.  Tomorrow, better writing on survival type projects ( since I already wrote it over the weekend I can guarantee it ).

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26 comments:

  1. How about a plan B? Another small piece of junk land close but not to close.Maybe just another bunker with some backups?just a idea,I never did like putting all my eggs in one basket.

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    1. Not a bad idea. I have the land, and I can visit when I rent a car. I really need to get off my ass- I'm just so wiped pysically after working and toting thousands of pounds.

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  2. when I'm bored and need entertainment I go for the movies. like 2013 and the old films on the v2 from wwII. well you combine those and you come up with:
    http://2013v2.tumblr.com/page/2

    In there at the bottom of the page you can see the competition and the big trophy awarded to the winner, a well deserve award.
    Go ahead, I was well entertain for a marathon session. I was not bored!.

    cheers

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    1. Sounds like you'd have to be sociable. And competitive. I've already won "best survivalist writer of all time", so I don't want to take away from the lesser mortals in other areas.

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  3. I have a challenge for your Greatness Lord Bison......

    Postulate how if Obammy manages to attack Syria, causing WW3 and all sorts of problems, that he and his cronies will be able to blame George Bush. LOL

    On a serious note for some lower intensity projects...Maybe a hardy breed of chickens or some shaded container gardening. Obviously you wont have water to grow enough to feed yourself but as a taste supplement.

    A bucket with bush beans, or cherry tomato's, a potato tower. Besides lower moisture foods....didn't they grow dates and figs in the middle east? I know I touched on these ideas before. Food for thought...no pun intended.

    If you want some drama and excitement quit buying the wife her beer....

    Loyal Minion

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    1. I know it is hard to believe, but keeping the wive in beer keeps The Beer Goggles on her and she sees me in a more favorable light. It is so distorted she halucinates that my junk is as small as normal size.

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    2. Vast wisdom and modesty.....we're not worthy Lord Bison!

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    3. But I still love you all regardless. :)

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  4. Lord Bison - in one of your extremely personal tales from yesterday, you revealed how much of a nerd you are for Role Playing Games. I would like to suggest that you re-kindle that fire in order to stave off boredom. It is likely that there are some people in Elko that can get down with that scene.

    I would also suggest that you explore the world of Podcasts. You can download them onto a flashdrive where you have the internet connection (when you post articles) and then later replay them by plugging the flash drive into a non-internet-connected computer inside the B-POD. From Kunstler to H.P. Lovecraft, there is a podcast that covers it.

    Last but not least, I consider you an absolute expert in very specific aspects of survivalism (the Lee-Enfield, storing wheat, shitting in a bucket, etc) but you yourself have claimed that you do not like to specialize in anything.

    There is one particular subject that you don't speak about too often, and it is something that I think you could make a lot of hay with; the subject being HAM radio. I could easily see your frugal experiments in that field becoming the stuff of legend.

    Just a few suggestions from a minion that requires you to continue writing.

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    1. Oh, I can't imagine NOT writing. It really keeps me sane, even as it causes stress. But a good kind ( we've covered that before ). I think HAM sucks, sorry. Just on general principles of keeping extra crap alive and running. Communications are vital, but soon HAM will be high tech. If I had a group of flying monkeys I could use them for comm.

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    2. Lord Bison of the Great Basin and King of Coiffure;

      Couldn't agree with the absurdity of HAM Radio. Not only does the apparatus require constant electric power, but is the biggest beacon in the whole world when the operator is transmitting. In other words, having a HAM Apparatus is akin to having a big neon billboard (like the Las Vegas Welcome Sign) advertising that there is electricity, people and food at the transmitter location. Sounds like bad news to a paranoid, when the great unwashed hordes of Oakland Gangbangers come over the Sierra Nevadas plowing east towards the ever fertile Great Salt Lake Valley, zeroing in on the transmitter using primitive direction finding equipment. Better to run silent, run deep. Keep keeping it real James!

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    3. I hadn't even considered that. And, OK, I get the pleasant and amusing sarcasm, but on a serious note: Is the salt lake valley actually a large fertile area? I won't travel into Utah, so I have little idea. I know the area was settled because of the farming, I just have no idea how large, nor if it is all paved over in suburbia today. This might factor into my empire building plans.

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    4. Lord Bison of the Great Basin and King of Coiffure;

      While certainly not an expert, satellite photos display a large agricultural area in Layton, Utah which composes over several thousand hectares in land area, adjacent to the Great Salt Lake. According to the official history of the State of Utah, when the Latter Day Saints Pioneers arrived in the Great Salt Lake Valley in 1847, their leader Brigham Young's first priorities was to begin damming the rivers (namely the Jordan) and other tributaries to begin irrigation of the land to provide crops for both human and livestock consumption. This is still very much in evidence in the satellite photos. Hence before the hypothetical army of the great unwashed Oakland Gangbanger Horde begins to move south towards the so-called "Mormon Dixie" agricultural heartland, they will make the solid attempt to strip the Great Salt Lake Valley bare of anything growing to feed their violent appetites.

      Now of course this potential scenario would preclude the presence of several hundred thousand Latter Day Saint National Army that would presumably be formed in the absence of fedgov authority. Knowing the Saints, they will fight tooth and nail, house to house, behind every blade of grass (or incidentally sage brush) to maintain what they would rightfully (seeing the amounts of small arms ownership in Utah) perceive as theirs, not to be given up due to a number of Battle Hardened veterans of the great Central California Culling of all the liberal-statist-socialist types, who falsely believed that state-sponsored tyranny would last forever, protect them from the great unwashed hordes of the East San Fransisco Bay region. Empire Building, one could do much better reconstituting the so-called "American Redoubt" before attempting to take on the Latter Day Saints, especially seeing how they have WMD's in magazine storage at Hill Air Force Base and all sorts of Nasties at Toole Army Proving Ground, allow for the paranoid imagination to run completely hog wild in anticipation. Keep keeping it real James!

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  5. I recently bought "The Home Schooled Shootist: Training to Fight with a Carbine". In the back of the book there was a short chapter on vitamin supplements.

    Guy recomended using Ubiquinol CoQ10, Astaxanthin, and Vitamin D3 5000 IU.

    Anyway I started using the stuff, along with a few more (Multi, fish oil, etc).

    Stuff gives me energy. I worked 46 days straight. Granted my work is mainly interacting with guests, wandering about and staying awake but before I worked 6 days straight and would get the fuzzys. Of course, it could be a placebo(sp)effect but it works.

    Look on the bright side Jim. You're in the best shape of your life!

    Gil

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    1. True, I am a stud muffin, even before the hair. I still need drama though. Almost too bad I'm monogomous ( I can't keep up with one fem, let alone two )- otherwise that's a lot of excitement.

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  6. " Communications are vital, but soon HAM will be high tech"

    It doesn't have to be too high tech Jim. In the early days of amateur radio, practically all of the gear was home made. It's very easy to get a general class license now, and there is no Morse code knowledge required to pass the test.

    Check out these kits in the link below. $50.00 for a transmitter and a receiver, so a complete unit for around $100.00 They are very low power (1 watt) CW (Morse code, not voice) kits, and would be pretty easy to keep going past the apocalypse with a few extra components. Even with these low power units, long range communication is a possibility with an adequate antenna setup, as in world wide.

    http://www.ramseyelectronics.com/hk/default.asp?page=ar

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  7. Boredom and the blahs will be a feature of the PODA as much as the occasional terror of living in one of todays urban hell holes will be.
    So I have roleplaying games, board games, hiking, books, whittling, and skills learning to keep me busy.
    Honestly it sounds like you need to branch out.
    Learn or discover a new interest not directly tied to life PODA - perhaps mountain bike timed racing. Or snake hunting, etc.

    Any project that you really dedicate yourself to will help but something that is DIFFERENT than what you do day to day (work and prepping) will be best.

    And heck remember what you said about false optimism keeping us sane, try and find some for yourself.

    -Grey

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    1. I can't seem to give up on The Dark Side. It fairly consumes me. So, while I'd try a old timey hobby I couldn't go totally unrelated. I just can't think what I'd like. Leather working-perhaps. I did that as a kid and was about as bad as you'd expect, but I have a lot more patience now. And, as a huge bonus, it consumes little calories/energy. I serious have little left at the end of the day/on the weekend.

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  8. Pick up a guitar. See if your song writing is as pithy as the rest of your life.

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    1. And I don't even mind wearing cowboy boots. The hat, not so sure about. Plus, I'd have to tour. Is Willie still around?

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  9. Well, high tech is relative. No smokeless powder, no batteries, that kind of thing pretty quickly.

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  10. Regarding water catchment thing, you thought of getting a couple of IBC tanks ((The white cubes that hold 1000 litres or about 250 gallon each)?
    You could bury them to keep them out of sight/keep cool during the summer and rig up a pitcher pump to get the water out.

    Just my Tuppence farthing...

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    1. That was my line of thinking. Being a ranching area, there are plenty of tank selling companies.

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  11. Bored are you? You weren't bored through your flash flood, were you? Remember, out there is the Big Sky country, the gods are watching. And they are mischievous.

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  12. How about learning to be a blacksmith? If you have the fuel (wood / coal) you could learn a trade that would be useful in PODA. And perhaps you could sell your work to locals in the meantime to bring in a bit of extra income..

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    1. Low fuel situation here, which is why I had to go underground or die come the apocalypse. Sage brush will be gone very quickly and then all the lumber frame houses.

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